Caught By The Moment / My Schitzophrenia

I was looking at the building feeling a bit nervous, relieved and calm at the same time. It looked so familiar, so weird and so full of secrets.

Strange feeling of belonging together was capturing my mind. So many years I've
spent there. So many new things I've learned there. So many common memories we have experienced and shared together in sickness and in health.
I'm looking it with opened eyes and never before has it looked like it just did. It was almost like a spaceshuttle, ready to take off at any moment, but still it was just lying there so calm, so peaceful, so mysterious.

Full of dirty little secrets, hollowing lonely spirits, suffer and joy, challenges, future...

This wasn't the first time I was looking at it and at the same time I was so sure I hadn't seen it never before. Not like this.

Never.
Maybe never anymore.

I looked at the surrounding area and noticed something I had never seen before.
There was the nearby store and behind it more buildings I had never seen before,
while at the same time I remembered seeing them almost every day. Some windows of
those buildings had lights on. I was thinking if someone would still be working
there, just like I did just a couple of minutes before. Then dropped the thought.

Who would be working in such a time.

I noticed flashing light in the ceiling of nearby building.
I noticed the difference between us.
I noticed the similarity between us.
I noticed empty parking place.
I noticed myself in more concretical than never before.

Maybe never more.

I remembered stories I had heard in the past. I remembered happenings from my past.

I remembered rumours regarding on us all.
I remembered the scale of the universe.
I remembered the decicion to forget.
I remembered the decicion to remember.
I remembered.
I realized.

Maybe I´m a beast for you, but only if you are the same for me.
Maybe I´m an angel for you, bun only if you are the same for me.
Maybe I´m the biggest pain in your ass, but only if you are the same for me.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I'm not.
But what is sure is that I will always keep my promises.

If I forget, you must remind.
If I don't tell, you must ask.

If you don't lie to me, I speak truth to you.

Stop the fishing, bugger.