What I m afraid of part 2

Psychology & information

As I says before, we live type of time where we have more information what we could possible handle ever.
By this I mean the great progress of technology, medicine and most of all. SCIENCE!

Man, I love electronic gadgets and computers. That's something what has been "close to my heart" - from age 10 or 12. Since I got my first computer.
I remember really clearly the times, when internet connection was made by modem, and browsing in internet was really exiting and new thing to me.
This is something what many people might be experiencing today, the young people.

The problem what they have (and I had) is basically the same!
We do not know!

What is in internet, where the connections is been made. What happens in reality other side of the world if I type something what could be understood wrongly.
I have many friends across the globe, and I can't or do contact them weekly basis.
This is a small problem for me, but could create a bigger problem somewhere else.

The connection possibilities what we have, and what we use. Is quite scary.
People are moving a lot across the globe and many could or have been living in other countries and comes from different cultures.

Not too long time a go, I met somebody who is from Egypt.
I met him in an art show where my friend took me.
That same friend is somebody who I referred in the first section of this column (side referring).

Anyway, I talked with this Egyptian guy and he wanted become a famous of his art.
He also said that he has seven (7) already patented inventions and claimed to be an scientist.
I met him couple days after, and he showed me something what I think I've seen first time maybe 10 - 15 years ago. And I know that is not a new thing even then.

Why?

Because the guy who made that invention was already old (30 - 50) and he has been possibly all ready doing something with this invention even before I saw that first time.

Anyway, my friend had good purpose of showing me that invention.
He want's to take that to global market, to help people to learn how to swim and also have fun in the same!
Not bad idea, or invention.
But I'm the type of guy who needs to know every fact of everything what I'm involved in, to be sure to know how and what people are doing when I'm not around them.
This is because I have met so many people in my life, and got hurt one way or an other. That I want to know a quite a bit more, before I can really start doing things.

Sometimes this also might create confusions, because my native language is not English. It is Finnish, that is not a big problem. It is only a problem when there are not all of the facts presented in right a way.

Now the psychology part.

I have psychological disorders what are investigated by real educated doctors.
Most times when I seek help from doctor, I try to write accurate description of my problem for couple of reasons.

1. I want to get help fast
2. Easier treatment
3. Copies can be made of this document to help the treatment process

Every time when I wrote my problems to an paper or file in my computer, and showed to a doctor.
They have been amazed of the accuracy and level of expertise of my writings.

When I was putting up my company, I went to see 4 different banks here in Finland.
Because I had a belief in my self so much, that I thought that I will get all of the banks competing of me to get me as their client.
Guess what?

This actually happened in some time.

But competition of my skills or me is not something what I want to do.
I know I'm number one, in my life.
But still my priorities are like this;

1. Peto & Pimu (Beast & Chick, my dogs)
2. Me

If we have a situation that we are out of dog food, but I have meat in my fridge.
I usually give the raw meat to dogs and eat something like noodles or macaroni.

Why?

Because I can explain my self why I need to reduce the amount of food what my body needs, with out getting too depressed of that.
It is much harder to explain that to the dogs, or children who are hungry.

I do not have a girlfriend and I'm not even sure, if I want to have any. (Sure I do, but just the "right" one).
The fact is that I knowledge my own problems too well, to allow myself to actually connect with anybody.

I don't want to hurt any girl what does not have type of problems what I'm suffering of, and also social stuff, like friend relations and stuff like that.
Can be really hard to me many times.

I know how to handle my friends, but still I know the fact of human nature.
That's why sometimes I get conflicts with people.

My way is not to force anybody to agree with me, but I try to get them understanding my side of the situation gently.

Many people who I've worked before found that hard.
I think that's just an attitude problem, and could be solved by training me more.

But those small problems what I have in my life, are so big to me to solve, that's a hard.
Also one fact is that everybody has problems, most of the cases problems are in the attitudes not in surroundings.
But how we can teach to people who moved in example, from Egypt or Spain, how things are done here in Finland?

This friend of mine, Egyptian. Told of a day what he had with his lady friend in a forest one day.
He asked from this Finnish girl, "how is it possible, that God gave oranges to somewhere, but no oranges in here?"

She took a mushroom from the nature and showed it to him. "This is our "orange", taste it".
He tasted it and did not understand or like it in raw from the nature.

The point being that nature is something what we need really to protect, there could not be oranges in Finland because the climate here is too cold and growing season is too short.
And we do not even want to change that fact, because we have nature what has adapted to these conditions.
If we would start changing the nature, we could create more bigger problem what we even started with.

Nature is something, what will survive if we human beings don't destroy that.

Homo sapiens, is often being compared to viruses. We are only animal what destroys it own surroundings.
That is a something what is more complex what I can even describe here.

Something what we can do, is try to recycle, create more renewable energy and try not to pollute.
We need all of the machines what we have, and people needs to have jobs.
We can't stop spending money or retreat from our business contracts.

We just should try to make our decisions in ecological friendly way.
I hope this will not cause any kind of bad influence, only good thoughts and actions.

Thank you for your time and reading this document.