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This article is originally wrote in finnish. I will freely translate it "on the go".
Original date of creation: about 2009-2010.

Un-published before.
Original is in my personal notes.
(Referring to one other note book what I lost / forgot somewhere (sigh)

Truth about office supplies sales

That mystical group of salesman's what goes around companies and sells basic materials like papers, clip holders, PR-products etc.

Here comes "the truth" what it is based on.

There are many companies what are selling something.
Most difficult is office supplies.

What is so hard about selling pens & rubbers?
Somebody might think.

Let us take a closer look of what "is going on" behind the scenes.

The basic starting point is this.
Car + phone + worker + education = salesman.

Salesman + products = bisnes
Not too hard, or what you think?

The key to make business is not that simple what I just made it sound.

Besides those things, you will have "the magical" component.
What could be, that magical component?
Somebody thinks now, and I don't want to explain it to you, yet ;)

Office supply sales is very hard business & job to do.
In my original article, I cross referred sales to religion, because some times when you are selling you need to believe in what you are doing.
Most cases, if you don't succeed the fault is not entirely yours, it might be also somewhere else.

That one office supplies sales company where I have been working in, had a good trainers but not so good "method of pricing products" - as I write it down here, now.

Most cases, what I had time to see. The new employees started, and very many of them finished their career before the 4 months "expedition time" (koeaika, testing period) had ended.

Most general comment in that point was "this is a hoax! You can not make your money with this job!"

They were 50 / 50 right and wrong.
This reflects the reputation of salesman's in that area of field.
Many many many times, I've heard rumors of when somebody ordered for e.g 100 pencils, and the price said to be in e.g. 1,00 (currency will not matter in this example case) + taxes, so if we calculate "fast way" the price after taxes should be around 124,00 + possible cargo expenses / other side costs.

Worst case scenario, the buyer received instead of about 130,00 bill, bill of 1300. Or something like that.

The guy who trained me, to do this kind of business had his training from other company what has been existing about 100 years or more.
I do not even need to say, that in big company where everybody is trying to compete with each other, it is really really really really hard to survive or even learn how actually do even that kind of business.
His training and personal working history affects on his opinions and decisions and also the future of his business, all most directly.

In a long term he will have his business, but it can't grow or get too much new customers.

I had pretty good customer base, in my sales area.
Many of my own customers gave me a _really really really_ positive feedback of my way to handle them and do my job.

And also, when I was not enjoying my job in that company, they still bought something from me :)
They were the reason why I continued to do that in that same company for all most two years.

To be exact in this point, I must confess that I was working there first time 2009. Then I quit my job when the global recession (lama) started to be over in Finland.

My boss said to me once, "those who learns this in this time, will survive and bloom after".

I quitted my job in that company the best possible time, ever.

I did not care, I was not doing that work because of the money what I could get out of my customers in a long term.

What happened in the time when I was away?

My customers staid loyal to me!
Many of them did not ever buy from anybody else than me!
When I came back, I was _SO_ happy to call them and say "HEY?! What's up? Long Time no SEE!"

And schedule appointment.

The sound of their voice (those who I had meet before) was so nice to hear, that that supported me alone!

I did not care if I had some bad day, or all of my deals did not go through.
I knew that there might be something what they maybe don't want to say to me straight to my face, in that time.

One of my old clients, who btw lives really close by my home in Finland (at the moment) actually said to me couple of nights ago that they ordered one product what I showed him before.

His colleague, other head master of high school (freely translated) was all ready my old client. And I had a habit of treat my customers with _respect_.

Unfortenatly, that really wise (but old) man did not understand everything what he saw of me, when he saw me first time.

He saw me as a "joke", but still he bought small things when he had a chance to do so.
His colleague and I were taking our dogs out at the same time, and we talked and he said that "We ordered those expensive products of your's, btw!"

They called to like "assistant (bosses wife)" and ordered that way.
Good for them, I would not buy from the owner (CEO) even my self (actually he is the reason why I now even publish this article).

One thing what is needed in order to make office supplies sales in a "field" is faith to what you do, even it feels, sounds, and is sometimes "joke".

One thing what also affects and applies is that the training what you get from your bosses, you need to listen to that.
But don't be 100% blind, it is not easy task to do.

Fact is that many companies "hoax" a little bit somewhere somebody. Competition is just so _brutal_ and the small things here and there, can make a difference in their big picture and survival of marketing forces.

That creates a sad picture of human beings, in my honest opinion. But luckily people still will help each other, at least little bit.

Somebody can help somebody with a small things, somebody can help somebody in a big things.

Fact is, that if you are doing "business" - you need to know exactly what you are doing, other wise somebody "T-REX" will come and eat you alive.

It starts to be time of the "closing of the deal".

Freely translated:

"Everything what you are going to do, you need to keep that for your own information, and you never should not give a way your hand in a first deal. You need to keep the situation in control, from the start to finish and you need to know how to read the situation right all the time.

For everybody who actually are doing office supplies business, I want to say just this.

"GOOD LUCK"

And if you come to sell to me, don't be offended if I might say "Thank you, but no thank you."

Be careful in what you do, and choose your words carefully. Because business is business".

I hope I do not upset anybody with this text.
I actually have a head ache so I will go back to home and sleep.

Have a good day!

Hi,

I wrote an article today about what I've seen in news lately.

I know that "I'm in the wrong place wrong time" - and I have been debuggin my computer OS X 10.7.5 (What I had before, now I seem to have 10.8).

Funny, heh, THANK YOU APPLE!

Anyway, I have some files on my computer what I need to deliver to few places but because I have not finished with my studies yet I cant find those few magical components hidden inside my computer to deliver them in the way some things used to be done.

I tryed to move 138 kt picture, took by Photobooth (built in software in my computer) - to an memory stick and this is the message what OS X first gave me:

Kohdetta "Kuva otettu 4-22-13 klo 2.26 AM" ei voida kopioida, koska vapaata tilaa ei ole riittävästi.

I looked the console out put and saw a reason from there.

This changed my plans for today, now I need to go to Apple store to get some information.

Sometimes I found this knowledge society (internet) really thrust rating because "everything is in internet" - these days.

Some days I just take my phones battery, camera battery, and all of the other electronically equipment battery's off because I want to be sure that nobody else can see me, track me except those people who actually see me physically somewhere.

Yesterday, I took every music song from my MP3 player off to my computer to just see what's the "name of the game".

And I found some really really interesting things in there.

That's all for now, I will stay in touch.

Psychology & information

As I says before, we live type of time where we have more information what we could possible handle ever.
By this I mean the great progress of technology, medicine and most of all. SCIENCE!

Man, I love electronic gadgets and computers. That's something what has been "close to my heart" - from age 10 or 12. Since I got my first computer.
I remember really clearly the times, when internet connection was made by modem, and browsing in internet was really exiting and new thing to me.
This is something what many people might be experiencing today, the young people.

The problem what they have (and I had) is basically the same!
We do not know!

What is in internet, where the connections is been made. What happens in reality other side of the world if I type something what could be understood wrongly.
I have many friends across the globe, and I can't or do contact them weekly basis.
This is a small problem for me, but could create a bigger problem somewhere else.

The connection possibilities what we have, and what we use. Is quite scary.
People are moving a lot across the globe and many could or have been living in other countries and comes from different cultures.

Not too long time a go, I met somebody who is from Egypt.
I met him in an art show where my friend took me.
That same friend is somebody who I referred in the first section of this column (side referring).

Anyway, I talked with this Egyptian guy and he wanted become a famous of his art.
He also said that he has seven (7) already patented inventions and claimed to be an scientist.
I met him couple days after, and he showed me something what I think I've seen first time maybe 10 - 15 years ago. And I know that is not a new thing even then.

Why?

Because the guy who made that invention was already old (30 - 50) and he has been possibly all ready doing something with this invention even before I saw that first time.

Anyway, my friend had good purpose of showing me that invention.
He want's to take that to global market, to help people to learn how to swim and also have fun in the same!
Not bad idea, or invention.
But I'm the type of guy who needs to know every fact of everything what I'm involved in, to be sure to know how and what people are doing when I'm not around them.
This is because I have met so many people in my life, and got hurt one way or an other. That I want to know a quite a bit more, before I can really start doing things.

Sometimes this also might create confusions, because my native language is not English. It is Finnish, that is not a big problem. It is only a problem when there are not all of the facts presented in right a way.

Now the psychology part.

I have psychological disorders what are investigated by real educated doctors.
Most times when I seek help from doctor, I try to write accurate description of my problem for couple of reasons.

1. I want to get help fast
2. Easier treatment
3. Copies can be made of this document to help the treatment process

Every time when I wrote my problems to an paper or file in my computer, and showed to a doctor.
They have been amazed of the accuracy and level of expertise of my writings.

When I was putting up my company, I went to see 4 different banks here in Finland.
Because I had a belief in my self so much, that I thought that I will get all of the banks competing of me to get me as their client.
Guess what?

This actually happened in some time.

But competition of my skills or me is not something what I want to do.
I know I'm number one, in my life.
But still my priorities are like this;

1. Peto & Pimu (Beast & Chick, my dogs)
2. Me

If we have a situation that we are out of dog food, but I have meat in my fridge.
I usually give the raw meat to dogs and eat something like noodles or macaroni.

Why?

Because I can explain my self why I need to reduce the amount of food what my body needs, with out getting too depressed of that.
It is much harder to explain that to the dogs, or children who are hungry.

I do not have a girlfriend and I'm not even sure, if I want to have any. (Sure I do, but just the "right" one).
The fact is that I knowledge my own problems too well, to allow myself to actually connect with anybody.

I don't want to hurt any girl what does not have type of problems what I'm suffering of, and also social stuff, like friend relations and stuff like that.
Can be really hard to me many times.

I know how to handle my friends, but still I know the fact of human nature.
That's why sometimes I get conflicts with people.

My way is not to force anybody to agree with me, but I try to get them understanding my side of the situation gently.

Many people who I've worked before found that hard.
I think that's just an attitude problem, and could be solved by training me more.

But those small problems what I have in my life, are so big to me to solve, that's a hard.
Also one fact is that everybody has problems, most of the cases problems are in the attitudes not in surroundings.
But how we can teach to people who moved in example, from Egypt or Spain, how things are done here in Finland?

This friend of mine, Egyptian. Told of a day what he had with his lady friend in a forest one day.
He asked from this Finnish girl, "how is it possible, that God gave oranges to somewhere, but no oranges in here?"

She took a mushroom from the nature and showed it to him. "This is our "orange", taste it".
He tasted it and did not understand or like it in raw from the nature.

The point being that nature is something what we need really to protect, there could not be oranges in Finland because the climate here is too cold and growing season is too short.
And we do not even want to change that fact, because we have nature what has adapted to these conditions.
If we would start changing the nature, we could create more bigger problem what we even started with.

Nature is something, what will survive if we human beings don't destroy that.

Homo sapiens, is often being compared to viruses. We are only animal what destroys it own surroundings.
That is a something what is more complex what I can even describe here.

Something what we can do, is try to recycle, create more renewable energy and try not to pollute.
We need all of the machines what we have, and people needs to have jobs.
We can't stop spending money or retreat from our business contracts.

We just should try to make our decisions in ecological friendly way.
I hope this will not cause any kind of bad influence, only good thoughts and actions.

Thank you for your time and reading this document.

Prologue

I was visiting my friend today, he has been really sick, like me.
He brought to my attention something what I already knew, but it was good to hear that from somebody else.

He said to me that I have been burning people out.
He meant our friends who we know, they are really really intelligent but un-educated individuals.
We all have many things common, but not all. Of this group I'm most educated & experienced with working life.

My background of my B2B sales is something what thought me a lot, and also made me "famous" in Finland of what I do.
When I've been traveling in the world (or even inside Finland), places like India, Austria (last trips). I every time met many people and 99% of those people who I met liked me a lot.

I speak with people many times even I do not know them before, and there lies a bit of a danger of being miss understood. Luckily not everybody get's me wrong, but it could create a lot's of confusion.

If I may quote one of the greatest minds of what we know in history, Albert Einstein.
He had theory what goes something like this:

"When computers replaces the social interaction we will have generation of idiots"

This in this sentence / context will not open the thought basically at all, so I will explain my theory about this.

Information + market forces + all the others pieces of the puzzle creates a big picture.
If we think globally and locally. We have two layers what are quite big already, but these combined also creates more puzzles that meats the eye right away.

We have big and small companies and lot's of international and local laws what people needs to obeyed, of course. They need to be part of the society in some way to interact with each other.
Something what reflects every "time" of our thoughts and behaviour, is music. Music is like a time capsule what shows that particular time's unique features.

Because of the different education levels of people understanding this type of big issues might be hard.
This also affects to those people who are actually making decisions of big masses, I must say at this point that I do not envy them, because it is so huge responsibility and affects so many lives at the same time. I think that it is REALLY scary.

Imagine even a small country like Finland, only 5-6 million people living here but still we have problems what many of the people can not do anything about. For this there is many many reasons, what I can not describe here.
One of the biggest problems what I see in our society (internationally) is basic things what somebody already has written almost 2000 years ago, we need to care our closest people and "obey" the ten commands of bible.

Do not steal, do not kill, etc.

Just really basic instructions of life, now we get to the cultural parts of this.
Because I'm well experienced & trained salesman I have also theory of different religions. Mostly because I've been really interested of different religions all my life, and also studied these different religions in school to understand them more.

Traveling in India was really interesting because I spend most of my time with muslims, I did not actually meet very many hindus over there, but I don't mind, those hindus what I met was really great people.
But I don't see any difference between muslim, hindu, christian, atheist, asatru, pagan religions (old finnish & Skandinavian religions, also natives; Australia, America)

When I was in Kashmir, somebody asked me have I ever thought to start teaching, or convert to muslim.
The situation was not dangerous to me in any way, but because there was people who I did not know from a longer time, I moved my standing position from next to other person to place where I felt more neutral.

It was quite scary moment for me, because I always have tried to remain religiously neutral because I saw that that is only way how I can prevent not offending anyone.
Those who knows even a bit of history, religions is one of the things what have caused a lot's of bad things because there was people who maybe did not understand their actions reactions.
I mean crusades and all the other big catastrophic things what some people have made.

I hope this kind of history will not repeat it self never, because we need to even try to understand people who might be living other side of the world and never seen before.

In most cases, what I have observed my self and other people, we take pre-assumptions of things.
We have an image / thought what we see in our mind what is based on our knowledge and experience of things, some cases that can be wrong. Some times not.

The difficulty of internet & having all this information available to us is that the youngest people who has "computer phones" - does not understand what they might see or hear over the internet.
Social applications are good, and fun. But also they are something what we should use responsibly.
One of the people who I actually met only once but I consider to be good friend of mine, has some kind of problems what I've got.

Sometimes when I see his Facebook updates I might get worried because I can not see that guy and see my self how bad condition he might be at the time when he posted that "thing".
I know him better to know that all what he posts is not taking side of anything, he just expressed his own feelings in sarcastic way.

I think his friends knows this but they also replies quite similar way (I think, I don't know for sure).
This is some kind of social problem what we are facing in this generation and century.
Daniel Goleman has wrote at least two really good books of Social intelligence.

I lended two of his books in 2012 December - November.
I was doing some research for one meeting in my working place. Sales strategy and goals of this year.

Me and my boss had a bit of history between us, so I wanted to express him what I thought of him. (Maybe stupid way to express that to him, but he got my point at the time).

What happened was that I almost got fired (with a reason), but I managed to survive the situation and I also had to check my own attitudes to this man, or working place.
We dealt with the problems and proceeded on our meeting, and the whole company (really small one) was starting to work to one goal.
About one month after, I went back to my boss. And told him that if he wants, this company could achieve it's sales goal in 6 months.
And that could be doubled in 12 months time.
The starting point was 750, I calculated that with small adjustments it could do 1,25.

His answer was "I make the strategical decisions here". How understandable, but he did not know that I was not going to make any kind of changes of his strategy.
I would just suggest him small thing what would make us all (mostly him) really happy and also help that company to grow.

Very shortly after, I quitted there because I did not like that guy. He have been screwing me over and over and over again, not in big things. But small things.
Anyway I wish him best in life.

Business is something what is really hard, and harsh world. Everybody WANTS MORE MORE and more.
It is quite understandable that in some point some things needs to change, if the company want's to grow.
This is become the market forces moves quickly and every business man tries to do the same thing. MONEY.

What a false "god" that is. Money is really important to every one of us, it is a system created long time a go to create order where was chaos.
We need to have currency, but it is not that simple.
European Union and Euro, is something what I consider to be good in the way.
I don't need to have 10 - 15 different currencies if I travel across the Europe.
It is convenient but costly system in many ways, but I do not give any critic to that right now.

I wanted to write this thing today, because I felt I have enough energy to do this.

Now I get to second part of this "article".

As some of the readers might know, I have / had own company, founded in January 2013.
First two months I was doing some consulting work for one other company.
Besides that I was making photography & visual designing for commercials.
I made my "break through", at least I think so.

In Finland most of the people knows me as a darn good salesman, because I have been doing B2B sales for a long time in past.
In Austria almost everybody who I know calls me a "photographer" or artist.
In Finland I got my "title" of artist from musicians, possible clients of mine.
I feel sometimes so weird and dislocated because my sense of reality and limits of imagination keeps fighting against each other.
If I'm not imagining things, I have got many invitations to many different countries.

UK, USA(?), Germany, Austria, Italy and many others.

Also what makes this spring even more interesting & out of the ordinary is that first time in many years I actually remembered that the applying for schools starts in this time.
Randomness or purpose?
When I installed some software updates to my mac, something came from the internet.
Some new version of dictionary what is also at the same time like a history book, and many other things.

One finnish school (what is actually ex client of mine) send me an pre-test / task in order for apply to study with them.
I usually read Metro - magazine while I'm going to "work" (hanging out now?) and I also have been writing few columns to them, but they never got published.
Anyway, this one columnist / journalist wrote an column of a guy named "Ville" - might be random accident or could be purpose, but anyway.
He was writing about this guy what fitted to me like 80-90%.
He said that he has been wondering why this punk is still in free instead of jail or dead.
He got to conclusion that this guy had grown up and became a man.
Someways it was nice how he wrote about this character, but if it would be describing me, I would send the writer a email and smooth the un-truths away from his text.

Anyway, I can't stop wondering this episode in my life.
My artwork was little bit more complicated than just a painting in a wall, or other visible art.
My art had many layers and forms, also many different dimensions.
One of those what is not easy to understand is time.
I followed my instinct when I was doing something and the end results were good.
People liked my work and they got hungry for more.

I got sick, and I could not work anymore so much.
Feels really stupid, first struggle your way to the surface and then just crash and burn.
I guess it would not be too late, to save my company & my personal life.
But the truth is that I need help.

I would like to scream full force and yell "HEEELLLLPP MEEEE" - but I know / think it would not do any good.
People are willing to help, but just how and where and when is the most critical questions.
I think many people in Finland had tried to help me in many many many ways.
But the difficulty of helping / giving a hand to somebody is not so easy.

Some tried to offer opportunities by work for the company. I don't know what was wrong with me because right now I do not have anything to work on, oh yea. I can't work at the moment.

I wonder, if the writer of that Metro column was writing about me as in a journalist. Who I should try to offer my services to?

Everybody likes movies & tv-shows. One of my favorite tv-shows is House and Elementary.
Both of the series I found similarities from my own life, in a way or other.
Psychological symptoms & behavior models, intelligence of both main characters.
I also would like to consult / investigate different kind of crime scenes or help people with ADHD diagnostic and treatment planning.

Those two things seems to interest me besides writing (I should send my lyrics to somebody).

If there is anybody actually reading this, and would be in position to help me someway.
Please contact me directly via email.

ville.ruokolainen@gmail.com

Kolumni

I'm sure somebody will translate this to English, I'm sorry I'm drinking now beer and would just like to enjoy my beer in peace...

Jos on olemassa tässä viihteen ja pelien maassa edes yksi asia mitä ei voi ennustaa, tai mitä ei voi pelata. Se ei ole markkinat. Se on venäläinen ruletti.
Pelin säännöt on kaikille "käsitteeseen" tutustuneelle tutut, se miksi kirjoitan tästä juuri nyt liittyy viime aikaisiin tapahtumiin.

Katsoin joskus ei kovin kauan aikaa sitten yhden elokuvan missä tarinan juoni oli kutakuinkin tämän kaltainen:

Nuori poika onnistui jollain ihmeella ratkaisemaan sellaisia koodeja mitä ei uskottu ihan heti uskottu kenenkään ratkaisevan. En muista tarinan päähenkilön tarkkaa ikää mutta tällä hetkellä se ei ole niin merkityksellinen kuin itse tapahtumien loppu huipennus.

Loppu huipennus oli se, kun kaksi tietokonetta alkoivat pelaamaan keskenään venäläistä rulettia.
Vanha ja uusi tietokone pelasi keskenään kovilla & oikeilla panoksilla.

Toisen tietokoneen nimi oli Joshua ja se totteli ystävällistä puhetta, sen "luoja", koodaaja oli opettanut sille sen kaltaisen säännön että komennot piti esittää ystävällisellä suoralla komennolla suoraan päätteen kautta.

Toinen oli uudempi joka oli paljon kehittyneempi, nuoremman "johtajan" tekemä.
Toinen tietokoneista jossain vaiheessa elokuvaa "otti vallan" eikä totellut käskyjä.

Elokuvan loppuratkaisu: Nuori koodaaja poika opetti vanhalle tietokoneelle "venäläisen ruletin säännöt". Kun uudempi tietokone oli melkein voittamassa peliä, se tajusi että ainoa tapa voittaa on olla pelaamatta.

Tässä piilee hyvä opetus sille aikakaudelle missä elämme tällä hetkellä, ympärillämme on koko ajan uudempaa ja hienompaa tekniikkaa. Huippu suorituksiin pyritään jatkuvasti kukin omalla huippu osaamisen alallaan.

Vuonna 2008 maailmassa koettiin suuri mullistus, josta kyllä kuulin & tiesin jo silloin. Sitä kutsutaan lamaksi, tai kutsuttiin silloin.

Tätä yritettiin ennustaa ja sopimuksilla ja politiikalla yritettiin asioita ratkaista. Tämä on kyllä ihan hieno ja toimiva tapa, me tarvitsemme sopimuksia mitä meidän pitää noudattaa.

Tätä voimme soveltaa aivan jokaiselle yhteiskunnan tasolle sekä alalle kun yksinkertaistamme asiaa vähän.

Meillä jokaisella on erilaisia sopimuksia, joissa ei välttämättä ole niin salaisia tai niin julkisia kohtia kun haluamme toisillemme myöntää, niitä kutsutaan salaisuuksiksi.

Sen ei tarvitse olla iso eikä pieni, tavoite on se että sinä et tiedä mitä minä tiedän. "Niin kutsuttua informaatiovaltaa".

Jos olette pelanneet uhkapelejä, olette ehkä joskus saattaneet kokea pettymyksen.
Itse harvemmin harrastan uhkapelejä, jos pelaan niin se tapahtuu lain sallimissa rajoissa.

http://www.facebook.com/SmoothProductionsFinland

I read article from Iltasanomat about North-Korea and what's going on in there.

If i understand correctly the situation is really complicated.
Both sides has allies and alliances what they are committed to defend and they are following their own sense / instincts in order to make actions.

I see lot of my self in "North Korea"

When I was small boy, I was teased in school continuously. I tried to tell the teachers and my parents about that subject but they did not take me seriously, I wanted to change a school.

I see the situation between North Korea and rest of the world like infected tooth, the patient has doctor who tries to help him but the patient can't go see him because he does not have money.

The economical situation + fear of the dentists actions are so scary that patient threatens his friends to have money to pay the bill of the dentist.

Friend calls to another friend to back him up, as a moral support.

The infection in the mouth gets more bigger and the tooth aches all the mouth and prevents from eating normally.

In this kind of situation outsider (therapist take away the fear) is needed to help take the edge off.

I understand both sides of this conflict really well, because I'm in financial trouble right know.

I have bills of my self and my company what I need to pay, and I do not have anything what I can bill from my customers because my business is so young and I'm young as an entrepreneur.

The Korea is in the same kind of situation of economics and fear.

The financial "war" - is creating more fear of the future and drives to desperate acts what will not be accomplished if they would be left in peace.

Finnish police came to question me about robbery in Finland not too long time ago, I was home at the time so I did not do it. (More text about that in link below.)

http://www.city.fi/yhteisot/blogit/pslave/123380/

Anyway, I was co-operating with the police off course because I did not have anything to hide from them, I have not break the law at least in this matter.

Anyway, the thing was that they thought I would be so desperate situation that I would compromise my own future for my whole LIFE because of few bad months.

I know I will survive this as a winner, I will pay my bills and take care of the things I need to take care of, like my pets.

Police let me go, because they agreed that I'm not the robber.

In my mind, I see a solution to situation with North-Korea & South Korea / USA.

I would just retreat from the military exercises & send group of NON-POLITICS / DIPLOMATS to get the bottom of things.

Musicians would be good choice, PEACEFUL and HARMFUL music for both sides and simple agreement.

For e.g. "USA will take bombers of if North Korea will agree to negotiate with un-politic / un-militaric people and will obey the agreement what is shown for the both sides of the management of the countries / alliances what is "affected" in this conflict."

I mean _really_ simple and easy conditions & terms.

"We will not attack if you will stop making threats.
We will stop making provosations if you open to the world more, co-operate to establish OPEN & trusted communication.

In return, we will open financial blocks and will start do trading / business with you if needed."

Something like that, too much regulations and restrictions makes life complicated, but they are needed because usually we do not trust another human beings.

Everybody is acting for them own good instead of making collaboration with each other to work together.

Collaboration between people and countries would be needed because we have only one planet to live on, and we need to be able live above the surface of this planet for years.

Most of us has children. We are the responsible adults right know.

There are many generations living here at the same time.

Those before my age have made decisions in time what still affects to my life, and so on.

We need to think further than our own nose, if we want to guarantee that our children will have something what we call "freedom".

Freedom is air we breath, water what we drink. Life what we live.

It is right, to exist.

Hi,

I did not sleep well last night. I was dreaming about many things what I would like to have in my life.

Nothing special, just normal life :)
I also wrote bit's of the script what I have been working on / off type for some time already now.

This year has been most weird so far in my life.
Childhood is over and adulthood knocks my door and sometimes bangs my head to the walls. Like the police what suspected me of robbery of grocery store in Helsinki Kallio.

I think these two police made good job when they came to my door.

As an expirience it was at least interesting, get handcuffs to my wrists and be observing while police went through my home.

I was co-operating offcourse because I have nothing to hide or any other way need to protect me from law. :)

I have lot's of fears, and paranoia. I have noticed that every time I sleep not well these things came little bit stronger, fear comes first and then I get suspicious of things. That's why I have been studying the activity in my own computer, to know what's happening and what I do imagine and what not.

Sometimes I feel that I'm crippled in life because of the psychiatric symptoms what I have.
Many times they control or prevent me doing things what would be perfectly normal in many ways.

I also try to think further decisions what could affect to my life in long term, and many times I'm insecure of making decisions fast. At least when I have chance so think before I make decision.
Unfortenatly many times people demand to have decision right a way, example in business negotiations.

This kind of things is easier to decide because most times they are "quite harmful" decisions.

But when I put my own business up things got complicated, right now I'm in the edge of shut down that, because I do not have energy to manage that right now.

And it would be the "right thing to do" - in this situation.

But that's the end of that!

Now I'm going to cheer up a bit and relax :)
And how I'm going to do that?
Play some computer games and listen reggae from Spotify :)

Damian Marley, Peter Tosh, and many other rulez!

Thx for possible interest, keep safe, take care, see ya soon :)